A horrible person
I think I'm a bad person. I think so, because I keep missing the damn classes. Some of them are plain boring and pointless (Danish) But I should still be going to them... Others, I really love, and hate missing (Theatre, Philosophy), yet I still oversleep, or don't care when I wake up in the mornings. The last group, Spanish, Maths and E-systems I really need to go to, in order to catch up on work... but instead I miss more, and slip further and further away.
Daina left already, but I think she would continue dissaproving of "me" since I miss classes alot. I talked to Karina already, but I don't even know it myself anymore. I used to oversleep because of insomnia, but now it almost seems like a choice I keep making wrong everytime...
Why must I be so bad? I feel that other things have equal importance as the school. Friends, staying sane, theatre, writing, thinking. All these things that so many others give up without a whimper, I kling on to as if they were what keeps me alive.
Others are capable of studying from end of school 'till 23.00, and then they go to bed so they can be awake the next day. Should I try that? It would be so lonely. I am scared of the IB. Why does it attempt to eat us all the time?
I just see this place as a UWC as well. If we are here for two years, but know no one else than our study buddies, have we not wasted our time here? I have friends from several countries, and nice acquaintances from even more. If I change patterns, would I lose them? Should I dare the attempt?
Yeah guys, today I missed another entire day of classes. And I don't have time to go around and apologize to the teachers, since I have a theatre trip to Bergen this afternoon. Just brilliant.
Did/Does the IB-monster try to eat you too? Did/do you ever feel like you are drowning in the IB-inlake?
Am I really a bad person?
Daina left already, but I think she would continue dissaproving of "me" since I miss classes alot. I talked to Karina already, but I don't even know it myself anymore. I used to oversleep because of insomnia, but now it almost seems like a choice I keep making wrong everytime...
Why must I be so bad? I feel that other things have equal importance as the school. Friends, staying sane, theatre, writing, thinking. All these things that so many others give up without a whimper, I kling on to as if they were what keeps me alive.
Others are capable of studying from end of school 'till 23.00, and then they go to bed so they can be awake the next day. Should I try that? It would be so lonely. I am scared of the IB. Why does it attempt to eat us all the time?
I just see this place as a UWC as well. If we are here for two years, but know no one else than our study buddies, have we not wasted our time here? I have friends from several countries, and nice acquaintances from even more. If I change patterns, would I lose them? Should I dare the attempt?
Yeah guys, today I missed another entire day of classes. And I don't have time to go around and apologize to the teachers, since I have a theatre trip to Bergen this afternoon. Just brilliant.
Did/Does the IB-monster try to eat you too? Did/do you ever feel like you are drowning in the IB-inlake?
Am I really a bad person?
posted by Gerbrith at 11:34 AM
3 Comments:
Finally you wrote sth new..To start with,IB monster does not eat you,and will not..Dont worry..As long as you are aware of the fact that you should study at the end to revise the things,things will be fine..
I missed a lot of classes last year as well.And this year in university.I generally go to bed really late,i simply cannot sleep..and eventually the morning classes do not happen..;)
What i dont understand is,why is Daina being bitchy about your class attendance.Her job there is to be a friend,and try to help you with your insomnia sometimes or talk to you.She is not supposed to be like a teacher..
Dont worry,things will be fine..Believe me they will..And you know,not everything can remain sucky,can they? Try to ask your classmates for the missed classes,it s the best way;)and it s fun..
Thanks guys... I needed that.
Hey Tugce, how long have you been reading my blog?
Well i think i have been reading for a while now.
And i found your mood quite similar to mine about school and missing classes terms especially..So i just go for it;)
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