So...Tired...

I stayed up all last night to write my philosophy essays, but didn't manage to finish any of them. I then had to stay up for Nat's birthday, and off course they had to hold a firedrill tonight. At midnight...yeah...

So I am practically collapsing at the moment, but apart from that I had a great day. I went to all my classes, went to Dale, and hung out with my friends. We had this sort of reunion thing, with the friends from last year, because we never see each others anymore. So we had some cake, icecream and stuff... Very cosy.

I need sleep now. Might update tomorrow. See you Bob.

Hmmm... I have a blog

I suppose I need to get some thoughts down on the paper. Or at least on the micropixels on the screen.
I have lately had a feeling comming over me. Or actually it is not a feeling. It is a complete void of feelings. It is the most calming experience I have ever had. I can't find anything in my daily life that could induce this non-feeling, but it is the closest I have ever been to tranquility or bliss.
The first time was an evening, the sky was dimming, I had no homework, and I was bringing my laundry back to my room. I had a feeling like the time stood still. I was moving through it, and it wasn't "frozen" it was alive, but completely stopped. It was like it was just breething, waiting for something to happen.
I then thought it was a once in a lifetime experience, and felt a slight unhappiness because I thought I would never feel like that again.
A few days later it happened again. Walking back from Flekke with a friend, and the feeling returned. I knew we were walking for about half-an hour, but it felt like we were walking a path through eternity. Everything around us was so alive!
Time truly stopped for me on those occasions, and since then I have been getting the feeling from time to time, and it is absolute tranquility. All worries are left outside when this world is entered, and nothing can trouble me there. I am all alone, yet so much in contact with everything!

Most of the time though, I have an immence feeling of loneliness. It is like in the middle of this crowded, intimate place, there is more loneliness than in a cave if I was all alone.
I get scared, and feel like I don't have my own place to stand.
I feel like I am loosing control, yet I know, that the only one pushing me over the edge is me.